Been at my new job for about 2 months and I still, truly, don’t know how I feel about it. I can just hear someone going oh, so you Rich Rich!? Na. I’m just choosey.

It’s so different to what I’m used to and if you’re a nurse, God bless your soul cause most of y’all are crazy. It’s just facts * unbothered shrug * @ me if you want to 🤷🏽‍♀️

I think it’s the fact that I know I can go back to Uber so quickly and have all the perks I loved again. I miss my mornings with my daughter, laying in bed watching her discover new things I never looked at or just speaking with her and having her big eyes just trace my face while she sucks on her fingers.

Now. I’m thankful if I get to say two words without rushing out the door with everything in my bag and let alone remembering if it’s my night to pick her back up from childcare. One morning I didn’t say anything until I was taking her out the car to drop her off, I felt like trash. I apologized to Emorie, I try to wake up earlier now to have some connection time with her. But it’s not enough, I think.

The fact is I still don’t know what I want to do and I just feel like I’m coasting. It’s fine, I know a lot of people with or without kids coast. But I have too many things I want to do and start that I can’t just coast. Having no idea how to start, and comfortable where I am and how I’m doing I coast. I’m choosey because of my daughter and now is not the time to mess up.