Good Father

I went to bible study Wednesday after missing about a months worth of teaching. I know πŸ™„. But it did not occur to me until I was in the study that I am not stressed. The lesson was on stress and I truly enjoyed my time and I felt refreshed, shout out to my best friend πŸ™‚ she did an awesome job.

It’s funny how you can answer the question and it marinates with you AFTERWARDS. Like was I not living this life myself?

I just answered the question, barely thought about it, it just came out. I’m tired, lord knows I’m tired but stressed? NOPE.

I stated, I am not stressed anymore because God blessed me throughout my entire pregnancy. Even in my wrong, he stunted for ya girl! I mean top shelf, I was ready to completely forget certain things and hoped someone would get it off the registry and if they didn’t I’d been okay. But God provided 6 big ticket items and presented it at the price of 1 big ticket item. If that’s not a blessing idk what is?!

*Queues shouting music*

I may struggle with not having my full independence sometimes, but that’s part of being a parent and a consequence due to a sinful act. Don’t misunderstand that last part, you can still be forgiven and blessed but there are still consequences.

I was struggling to figure out what lessons I can take from this experience, besides the obvious to me. But Wednesday brought some clarification.

Trust.

I felt alone at times throughout the pregnancy and afterwards too sometimes. But, clearly he is watching over me and taking care of us. Emorie herself is a blessing but I’m constantly trying to find what other blessings/lesson came from this situation that I can benefit and learn from.

I have to make sure I’m doing my part in this relationship though, studying and praying. He’s been a good father. I’ve been lazy physically, mentally, and spiritually. I have to shape up. If this is him blessing me now, I can only imagine what it’ll be like when I’m at my best. Hearing my response Wednesday energized me, and the gears are getting greased up and moving again. I can’t get through this life, if I’m not hearing the voice of the Lord and reading what his word says.

(This picture sums up all those feelings 😹)

Boss baby

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  1. Groshonda says:

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    #healingjourneyπŸ’š

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