I went to bible study Wednesday after missing about a months worth of teaching. I know 🙄. But it did not occur to me until I was in the study that I am not stressed. The lesson was on stress and I truly enjoyed my time and I felt refreshed, shout out to my best friend 🙂 she did an awesome job.
It’s funny how you can answer the question and it marinates with you AFTERWARDS. Like was I not living this life myself?
I just answered the question, barely thought about it, it just came out. I’m tired, lord knows I’m tired but stressed? NOPE.
I stated, I am not stressed anymore because God blessed me throughout my entire pregnancy. Even in my wrong, he stunted for ya girl! I mean top shelf, I was ready to completely forget certain things and hoped someone would get it off the registry and if they didn’t I’d been okay. But God provided 6 big ticket items and presented it at the price of 1 big ticket item. If that’s not a blessing idk what is?!
*Queues shouting music*
I may struggle with not having my full independence sometimes, but that’s part of being a parent and a consequence due to a sinful act. Don’t misunderstand that last part, you can still be forgiven and blessed but there are still consequences.
I was struggling to figure out what lessons I can take from this experience, besides the obvious to me. But Wednesday brought some clarification.
I felt alone at times throughout the pregnancy and afterwards too sometimes. But, clearly he is watching over me and taking care of us. Emorie herself is a blessing but I’m constantly trying to find what other blessings/lesson came from this situation that I can benefit and learn from.
I have to make sure I’m doing my part in this relationship though, studying and praying. He’s been a good father. I’ve been lazy physically, mentally, and spiritually. I have to shape up. If this is him blessing me now, I can only imagine what it’ll be like when I’m at my best. Hearing my response Wednesday energized me, and the gears are getting greased up and moving again. I can’t get through this life, if I’m not hearing the voice of the Lord and reading what his word says.
(This picture sums up all those feelings 😹)